For the last five months or so, I’ve been pretty useless. Terry’s had to take over the housekeeping while I sat or lay in bed, nursing my aching back. I’m definitely better now, with one little setback three weeks ago, and this last few days I’ve resumed some chores as my strength and energy permit.
Do you know what happens to your muscles when you do nothing? It isn’t pretty. They get flabby, and you don’t have a lot of get-up-and-go. If your lifestyle doesn’t include some purposeful physical activity, your muscles are going to turn to mush.
It’s not pretty.
We have a multi-purpose cable gym downstairs, so I’ve put myself back on the track of better muscles, more strength, more energy.
Friday I did some leg lifts. Thought I was going to die. But I did them again yesterday, and it was a little better. This is just for starters. I need to work my arms, shoulders, my core–everything. And I have to do it carefully so as not to wake the sleeping monster in my lower back.
Thinking about all that, I thought about how quickly we can become spiritually flabby. Skip your Bible reading and Bible study for a week, put aside prayer, miss church? It’s going to be very easy for Satan to pay you a little visit and direct your thinking to an unhealthy place. I hate missing church. I’ve missed more church in the last five months than in my entire life up to now. Breaking that pattern of church attendance can cause a spiritual ennui that drives you right down into depression.
Combine all that spiritual neglect with chronic pain, poor sleep, lack of fellowship with other believers, and you have a recipe for disaster. It’s time to put yourself back on a spiritual exercise regimen, because you can’t fight Satan if your spiritual armor is missing.
Am I saying this has happened to me? Yes, absolutely, to a degree. Anyone who thinks that being physically inactive sounds like a wonderful vacation? Has never been forced into physical inactivity. Partly because of the work I do with people who are suffering depression, I’ve been aware of my own tendency in that direction. I’ve been purposeful about keeping up with my Bible study blog because it helps me stay in the Word. I chose to spend more time in prayer, because–not much else to do, right? Use the time wisely.
Some days it’s been a battle, and some days I’ve just given up and wallowed in the muck, Not often, though. I don’t like muck.
I am keenly aware that it could–and probably will–happen again. The conditions in my lower back aren’t things that can be cured. I don’t look forward to the next event, but I’ve learned a little bit about how to deal with it.