Isaiah 38: 12-14. “Mine age is departed, and is removed from me as a shepherd’s tent: I have cut off like a weaver my life: He will cut me off with pining sickness: from day even to night wilt Thou make and end of me. I reckoned till morning, that, as a lion, so will He break all my bones: from day even to night wilt Thou make an end of me. Like a crane or a swallow, so did I chatter; I did mourn as a dove: mine eyes fail with looking upward: O LORD, I am oppressed: undertake for me.
As Hezekiah recounts his illness. we see the depths of his despair. He had feared death, and felt that God had cut him off. In verse 10 there are seven regrets Hezekiah shares that are not uncommon to anyone who is facing death.
- I am deprived of the rest of my years
- I will not see the LORD in the land of the living.
- I will not behold man with the inhabitants of the world.
- My plans for serving God among men are ended
- My plans for helping my fellowmen on earth are blasted.
- My age is departed; I am too young to die; my useful years are removed like a shepherd’s tent
- My life is cut off like a weaver taking his work from the loom and departing with it.
It is easy to see that Hezekiah was not ready to die. He was sick, probably in pain, his body poisoned from the ulcer or boil that was slowly taking his energy and vitality away. I think he was depressed. His thinking was clouded with doubt, fear, and deep regret that he would die so young.
In his sorrow, he does speak to God in prayer. The good news is that as he seeks God, his mood lifts, and of course he had already received the promise of 15 more years of life. What I find most interesting about this psalm is the way he traces his emotional response to his impending death through his sorrow and back into joy.