Saturday Soliloquy: It’s BACK!

Yup. My back is back. I hope it’s just a little bump in the road, but it’s been bothering me off and on. I can usually settle it down with a little TLC, but this session is going to take a little more time, I think.

Have you ever prayed about something, asking God to–well, just fix it, please? Take it away? At least relieve the pain? And He says NOTHING in response? Did you ever wonder if He even heard you?

If you are His child, He hears you. What we have to understand about God is that we can’t put any requirements on Him. That’s beyond our human ability. One of the hardest things I’m still learning to do is to let God be God, and trust Him for the outcome. He is not required to concede to our demands.

But doesn’t the Bible say that He delights in giving us good and perfect gifts (James 1:17)? Yes. BUT! He is not only the giver of gifts. He is also the One Who knows when the gifts are good and perfect, and we cannot define that and dictate to Him what He needs to give us.

So I can only conclude that I need to continue to let Him be God in my life, and to accept what He allows. I can be thankful that this pain started in my late 60’s, and not my early 20’s. I can be thankful that there are pain remedies that were not available when my mom went through this same pain. I can learn to not focus on the pain, except to treat it as much as humanly possible. I have excellent medical care from compassionate people who don’t tell me it’s all in my head. The injections I get now and then really do help a great deal, although they are not a permanent remedy.

I can be patient, because I know that when He takes me home, I’ll have a new body, pain free and perfect.

4 thoughts on “Saturday Soliloquy: It’s BACK!

  1. Linda Lee Adams/Lady Quixote

    Praise the Lord! This is exactly what I needed to read right now.

    According to a doctor I saw last Monday, the only surgery that might help my right shoulder is a total shoulder replacement. I don’t want to do that, because I know how long and painful the recovery would be, from a friend who had that done a couple of years ago.

    My doctor said that I have osteoarthritis. Not just in my shoulder, but in my hands, my feet, my neck, my back, my knees. Getting older is such an adventure.

    There are days when the pain is so bad, I want to scream. There are days when I can barely function. And I pray, God, PLEASE take this pain and disability away! But I always add: Not my will, but Your will be done. Because I trust You, even when it hurts. I trust that You know what is best, with eternity in view.

    I have had prayers that were answered immediately, miraculously. With eye witnesses to the immediate miraculous move of God. But the vast majority of my prayers seem to bounce off the ceiling. It took this ignorant, slow learner a lot of years and a lot of hard knocks to finally figure out that God knows what He’s doing. God is God and I am not!

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    1. Linda, thanks for this response. I’m so happy that the post was helpful to you. I’m sorry you have such pain. Sometimes it’s hard to be thankful, and that’s when we have to look for the blessings. Praying for you, my friend.

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