I’m actually a little surprised at myself. I don’t usually mind winter. I grew up mostly where winter was just a normal fact of life. In fact, I enjoyed snow, Sub-zero temps didn’t bother me. It was just part of the normal flow of the seasons, and it only lasted a little while.
This year? It’s different. I’m tired of snow, even though I’m rarely outdoors. Once a day to check the mail, maybe a grocery run, and possibly a doctor-or dentist-appointment. COVID has shut down some of my usual activities: teaching at the homeschool co-op, teaching my women’s Bible study class. Getting together with a friend for lunch.
I know I need to get outside more. Take walks, build up my energy level and get my muscles working again. It’s easier just to stay in, stay warm, read, write a little (very little, to my shame) and do the little bit of laundry and cooking required for the two of us. I’m afraid I’ve allowed myself to slide into a dangerous place, way too close to what I observed with depressed clients when I was still working.
No, I’m not depressed. I know what that feels like. I just find myself having less and less initiative as time goes by. I don’t want to watch any news, or read any news. I’m so turned off by what is going on in our political scene, and right now it’s best for me to just stay away from it.
So, what would I advise a client in my counseling office?
“Do what you need to do, but not all at once. Pick one thing and nibble away at doing something about it. If you try to make every day chock full of activity, you know you won’t keep it up. So just decide to set aside a specified amount of time moving, whether it’s outdoors walking or using the cable machine in your basement. “
“What’s that? Too cold in your basement? Wear your sweats. Don’t be such a dodo bird.”
The one thing I’ve been faithful about–well, two things–would be reading my Bible and praying, and writing my blog(s). Both of those activities keep me grounded, and have made me accountable to readers. That’s a good thing. Accountability keeps us on track, and helps us recognize when we’re in trouble at some spiritual, emotional, or physical level.
One thing I’m thankful for right now is that Terry just popped in to ask me if I’d like some chocolate ice cream.
Of course. Silly question. I’m ALWAYS ready for just about anything chocolate 🙂
And that’s really all I have to share, anyway, so this is a good time to stop.