Some of you may have noticed that my posts are going up later than usual. That’s because the disease, Old Woman’s Back, has returned with a vengeance. I’m not sleeping very well, and it has put my whole system off kilter. I’m not working this week, missed two out of my three days last week.
When I called to make an appointment with my pain doctor, I was told they couldn’t get me in until the 20th, this coming Monday. I asked if the doc would renew my scrips in the meantime, and was told that he would not do that because it’s been so long (over a year) since I’ve needed them. I have just enough pain pills to get me through to Monday if I take them only once a day, usually before I go to bed.
So I’m hurting, and my life has once again gone off the rails. I’m sure the doctor will send me for another MRI, since that hasn’t been done in at least two years.
Now, it’s time for me to practice what I preach. Being thankful is paramount, because if I don’t focus on the things for which I’m thankful, I will be flooded with resentment, anxiety, and fear. Yes, fear. I don’t like pain, and I know this condition is not going away. The symptoms can be treated, but they cannot be cured.
So. If you are a praying person, please add me to your prayer list. Prayer is still the best healer.