Week Two

It’s been almost two full weeks now since I started my six-week break, and I’m already feeling panicky about going back to work.  Big red flag.

For any of you who have never experienced clinical depression, I pray that you never do.  This is new for me, and I don’t like it one little bit.  If you hold the belief that depression is “just a sin problem,” you need to back up off that a little bit and consider that while the spiritual aspect always exists in depression, it is NOT the sole, only part that needs to be addressed.

I often remind my clients of the great Bible and/or historical characters who struggled with depression.  Charles Haddon Spurgeon is right at the top of the list, along with David Brainerd and Abraham Lincoln.  Biblical characters include David, Jeremiah, Jonah, and the Apostle John.  The one thing all these people have in common is a personality that is characterized by great gifts, great compassion, and great attention to detail.  Perfectionism is a part of the personality, along with introspection, loyalty, a “thinker/get it right” approach to life, and a tendency toward great creativity.  The dark side of this personality includes a negative outlook, critical spirit, pessimism, and an unforgiving spirit.  Please understand that no one encompasses every one of these traits, and we all have other temperaments as well as this one, which by the study I use is known as the Melancholy temperament. It is the personality that is most inclined to experience depression, although no one is invulnerable.

I’ve never considered this to be my outstanding temperament, although I am aware of many of these traits in my own make-up.  I believe that maturity, life circumstances, and some pretty tough events just recently have pushed this temperament to the forefront, and I feel as if I’m swimming through thick mud right now.

I went to my doctor’s office today to get both a flu shot and a shingles shot. The nurse who gave me the shots has become a friend, and she looked at my face and said, “What’s up?  You’re looking worn out.”  So I dumped all over her, and she handed me tissues and held my hand, took notes, talked to the doc, and the medication I probably should have started several weeks ago is now on my dining room table, waiting to be taken with my supper.

So now I have a question for  you, and I hope you’ll respond here on the blog.  Are you interested in learning about depression?  Would you like to know more? Are  you struggling, and feeling as if there’s nowhere to turn?  I’m considering opening a new, separate blog just for this topic, and I’d be interested to know how many of you would  like to read it.   There is so much already out there on this topic that I hesitate to pipe up; however, I feel I do have some insight to offer both professionally, spiritually, and personally.

Let me know what you think. It will help me make my decisions.

10 thoughts on “Week Two

  1. I needed something to help me in 1980. I do have short term depression now and then but nothing like what I went through after ovarian cancer surgery in 1979. Bob was NOT sympathetic, handled it poorly and as a sin problem I needed to solve. Every single day was black, threatening clouds, but I had to paste a smile on my face and keep going. Finally I squirreled enough money away to pay for a doctor visit, and since I could not take HRT due to further risk, my doctor presecribed something to help me sleep, and a mild calmative that I have continued to take until about a year ago — I took it only when the need was getting great. Since my mom passed away, the need is not frequent. I would read a blog on the subject if I knew the writer. I don’t trust just anyone on this subject. Reading the column now would just be helpful to help someone else. I also am willing to allow you to question me on anything if you thought it helpful. Again, I don’t much like digging up the old feelings, but if it would help someone, then, yes. The title of my blog is no accident. If it were not for the Shepherd’s guiding jpresence, I would have committed suicide. To this day, very few people know that–maybe three. Bob never knew.


  2. Ronnie

    Well, my dear friend, you know my history with this subject, and my heart aches for you. I would be totally behind a blog of this subject. It’s something I ALWAYS have to be on guard against, and have battled more recently due to my health problems changing so much of my life. You start it – I’m there. Praying for you!


  3. Glenda

    I am blessed not to have been touched personally by this dreaded disease, but my dear mother was, and I watched her, when I was in my very early 20s, reach a point where she could not sit down at the table to eat. She would carry her dish of food as she paced, and there were occasional moans that were quite foreign to me. My poor dad was totally helpless, but was finally able to get her to a doctor, who admitted her to the local mental health asylum for treatment. I was not living at home at the time, and didn’t realize what was happening until I visited one weekend. After I returned to the place where I was living, the people there would take me to visit Mother on weekends, but there was little improvement until they started shock treatments. This was in the mid-60s, when other treatments were quite unknown. I have heard all the horror stories about those shock treatments, but I have to admit that nothing else seemed to bring my mother back to the smiling, precious lady that I had known all my life. I have also heard much about depression being a sin, but just watching my dear mother and knowing what was behind her situation has convinced me that it reaches far deeper than sin. Sometimes, people are just overwhelmed by life and the complications that they cannot control, and the brain just creates its own little world where a person can escape without being hurt further or hurting other people. I would be most interested in learning more about this situation, as I do have some friends who struggle with it from time to time. Even if it’s not severe enough to take over a person’s life, it still needs to be dealt with, and the sooner it is recognized, the more easily it can be conquered. Thank you for your candor in sharing your bout with this creature! My prayers will continue as you deal with your own health as well as your husband’s.


  4. Oh Linda I am so very sorry to hear this! You have been in my prayers faithfully. I think doing a blog on depression would be helpful for you and others. I know it would be helpful to me (on a scale of 1 -10 with 10 being the highest I give it a 10!) Hope that put a smile on your face.


  5. Michael Kreger

    Sure! Go for it! I think it would be a help to you and to others.

    And if you need some genuine escapism, you can always work with Dad to follow up on the conversation he and I had early this month. Once he is ambulatory again, I mean.


      1. Michael Kreger

        Yes. I would like to do that too, but we have WAAAAY too much going on…too much money flowing out. Final mortgage payment, followed by starting to repay our renovations.


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